For now I fuck this up on the regular, it was once overburdened with potential and clean pencil work which could be adjusted with ease. Now it drifts toward absolute disaster, and I have to pretend it’s all some intentional improv act.
Working 9.6 hours a week is about as good as it gets. Remainder of hours spent awake are divided randomly across a few things worthy of exposing to the internet.
1. Spend much too much time learning to make a pixel platformer which now morphs into an actionRPG (it is the next tutorial in the list) and then hopefully if I can manage it, one day… a RiverCityRansom-esque brawler, in a 90’s TacoBell.
He can walk and duck and jump and I can do so with my knockoff Xbox controller, all this on Debian (stable no less) Linux is quite something. “moonpiewhatatimetobealive.jpg”
I also made the little beer can, or what aims to be a beer can, its a tribute to “Natty Lite”, as this game will be set in a vague and very humid memory of Florida, and so, yes Natty it is. That said, I have not made it to the part where you can interact with any object, so its just stuck there for now…
Doing this by copying along to HeartBeast’s tutorials, very easy to follow along with if you have any inclination toward making something with Godot.
2. Return of the Glitching Wreckage.
I made this “glitch bot”, I wanna say… last year-ish probably, and it was good-ish for about an hour, than it got real stale like. I didn’t know how to really pull in some randomness. I think I could do a better job now, and that thinking is half the effort, it will require a day or so of work, but it could be something interesting and an excuse to sharpen skills which really aren’t even worthy of the knife metaphor in use there, more like continue effort to have knife like skills, right now butter is safe against these programming efforts.
random is just better
ziploc gimmie some money
Again it will improve, and bits of it will make it out to Twitter @defty_k
3. Are you still drawing thosepictures?
– Yes. Yes, I am afraid I still am drawing “those pictures”.
Ah yes, the finest waste of time imaginable, if you think your identity is a bit lame now, and could use that air of prepackaged creative free spirit, grab your watercolors, pens and assorted mediums and become an ARTIST.
Trying to get back to this big one, the original “WIP_2020” I was so definitely going to make this year and have done on time and really for real just make a yearly pattern out of making such a piece.
Still think he is working out ok.
This mess still be grinded away at daily.
This hand was the crowning achievement of the weel.
Just fill it up with hatching.
And the new pencil work is progressing, not enough to be re-scanned, but enough for a solid lazy photo from my phone.
Sketching is better than reading the news in the morning.
Draw from life, its rough.
You cannot identify anyone I draw.
I could never be a cop sketch artist, cause fuck them snitches.
Ok now for the rest.
Scroll no longer.
But post anyways.
Mess, but one day progress.
I forget what was up here.
Same here, like whaaaa.
Again, hell if I know.
I can’t paint for shit.
And this mess behind the studio building ain’t helping. So much noise.
Started learning python, know some bash, feels vaguely familiar, but the syntax is simpler-ish (?) and makes me wanna throw out my german keyboard cause I can’t deal with all the parentheses, trying to follow a really simple course and I just keep looking down and seeing them on 8 & 9, then another brain cell dies.
Also commas, commas everywhere, so i had to set the numpad dot to comma (nerd alert, linux command below):
setxkbmap us -option kpdl:comma
As well, I have now into learning Godot, and am super excited just to make a dumb bit of pixel sketching kinda jump, next step = gamepad, just one button input working will be amazing.
I can’t say I did much this week, I am not sure where it went or when weeks begin and end, the axis is skewed as of late, mostly weighted in a direction that favors me, yet it seems to slide into places unplanned.
I’ll just post a couple bits therefore.
some sketching was done today, but honestly, why?
get the stupid out
more to come this week on this i do believe
learnin to paint
sun fried eyes
As well I guess most effort went back into what once held the glorious title of “Untitled 2020”. Which once again is another piece which starts up with my usual ‘Man walks into a bar’ setup and I hope to wind up at a new punchline, the man in question is emaciated and has a deal about civilization and plans for wheat, and probably books on the best use and case situations for cages. “Great Man of History” or something to that effect.
get some civility
this dude was surgically re-worked with my meat hands
*(Reading the above now, and the whole time I am hearing this type of insanely confident Dutch male accent, Dutch dudes are beyond cocky, hanging out by the Herengracht sipping beer and collars popped. )
Past week has been pretty much just one drawing, some bits of changes on other works but mostly i just did this:
I used to draw just in pencil, I’m sure that’s kinda the norm, HB lead pencil in a classroom = drawing to escape boredom. But then I got into ink and it became a kinda default of work, a stupid expectation that everything will wind up dominated by this medium and balanced against it. But just working in pencil is so easy, I forget what a pain in the ass pen and ink is cause I have internalized its terrible pace.
when it was a work in progress
scan away scan away scan away
the transfer from the physical to the digital plane still blows my idiot mind
Besides this, not much.
Supposedly I am taking part in an open studio day, but really? I don’t foresee letting people come in to my tiny drawing box and breathe their covidian breathings all down on the place. Usually someone comes in and just asks if it’s George Washington, snickers and that wraps up the human interaction portion of the day in which I play my role as subject in a human zoo.
All else fails, yellow works. A replacement midtone, semi opaque. Covers up the mistakes (kinda), people like color, and actually gives a nice Simpsons-esque quality to the drawing with a slight bit of the jaundice.
Maybe finished works arrive here?
Soon to be a syndicated show on Fox
That Halloween special when Ned was the devil
Then I done blew his face off.
Check the forehead…
New big “Scroll” work continues its march towards victory over old and boring works I have little hope of ever finishing
kinda the scene i am working with
guts…. n yella
yep, no need for another human form. ever
temptations of a buzz cut
Need to order fixativ or this whole thing will get fucked
right on the margin,
Enough of that, it doesn’t look so great online, I think I just like blank paper. So, other stuff.
As for the rest of this post, let’s go with the sketches and some studio shots, all handled loosely as looser hands is the aim as of late, to try and wrest back some pre ink based hatching tendons, I once upon a time could shade with a pencil in that way that is like soft and not by scratching lines into paper. “Naturalistic”, like quasars n’ shit.
Life drawing, lord am I rusty
Just scribble, loosen thy hand
I will learn some
Just swim in the ruins
Maybe finished works arrive here?
One day vengeance on all the lame drawings
Also, comic page, about waking up in “spaghettie”, in Seattle I think… I never worked in a real 7-11, just “Lil’ Champ”, Amoco, Shell?, and some other lame pretenders to the throne.
And finally, I hope, let me wrap this up with what the Twitter bot coughed up from the depths, it has the word virus in it, so it seems relevant now:
Perhaps it could be possible to really make a weekly update if I did things differently.
Stop playing video games?
Make updates about old stuff since I can’t really churn out content at such rates.
Yeah, why not start regurgitating the old stuff, I think with notes and critiques, like hey youngin’ you done fucked up here.
Right now working a bit on the Trapezoid Series Page. Will add some more work in progress shots, details and such, also somewhere I had better photos of Trap III.
Stop starting new works before finishing old ones?
New work (see featured image above), is part of this attempt to turn my desk into a megascroll and just run paper thru until its a decent 2m of material, than slice and start new. That said, I did not progress at all on the other big drawing of 2020 at all this week, cause it is lame.
There have been some delays… (distractions as well if I am being honest here.)
The whole thing, which is currently in a deep state of srugical repair. Just rip this shit up.
Primary patient, I mean if this bit is fucked then what the hell else can even work.
Where to start with how shitty these turned out…
Again same, but also dude on far right sucks, just like the right in reality, woop.
This bit holds up still, BUT this photo does not, there is scans elsewhere here and its not like anyones looking that closely besides me right?
A bit of “dear lord what the fuck am I doing with my time on this here earth” has been slowing this drawing down, and that is only fair since this drawing induced the sensation (give and you shall receive). This current WIP is merely off to a lame ‘start’ (several months in) lets say, the anatomy, the composition, I mean I am a fan of repetition but I have to say this needs a spark, and I have been here before, usually there is two options draw a hole into it or give it some room to breathe. So onto the back burner with it for the foreseeable future, no need for another wasted period of stressed efforts, I can wait… (so patient… fucking peice of shit, stupid drawing)
For now, studies and let some other drawings get moving. The one below is one I started when my eyes were littered with the noise of cataracts and I couldn’t tell if the paper was yellow or why anything was so blurry. So, now with some time distanced I can use it as a testing pad, perhaps I can make it work.
Back at this one…
Done during cataract days, if I can fix this fucker I can fix anything.
How it was last week vs. now. Next week, probably just a hole in the paper.
Nothing beats listening to Behind the Bastards talking on about people drinking bleach / prescribing bleach as a cure all for fucking idiots, whilst sketching out some anatomy and other nonsensical shit.
sketch apr may 2020 ish
you got the FLU
sketch apr may 2020 ish
sketch apr may 2020 ish
always more anatomy plz
cant draw ears
And some more photos of alterations underway in the studio…
small work, mehhh
got something here, not sure what
notes on plans to make notes
its gone to hell
And seeing as one giant drawing is never enough, I ‘modified’ my desk in order to turn it into something akin to a giant calculator, or scroll, so I can roll a huge piece of paper out indefinitely and just cut it every couple of meters and say, ‘look, a drawing has been finished’.
Spaghetti? Comics again… underway… hopefully.
If ‘Fallout 76’ and ‘Slay the Spire’ are held at bay, I should manage to continue the regular updates, if anyone reads this no matter, sense of direction (the micro accomplishment machine) is worth it alone.